I miss her.... n mom too...

Well... had to got to work today.. 7am.. n late for 15mins... xD.... n decided to cover for shidah shift on friday as i heard she had car accident.... sad2..... Well... Fida replied my sms... at 4AM.. haha kinda too early... n we both were late for our own stuff(Work n School)... as we decided slept back hahah... wasent a good idea after all eh u... hahah.. Well.. i do miss u... but u sadly broke my heart once jus for a damn guy... i guess i had to much hope on myself n thinking to much positive... stupidly of me... n it will NVR happen again... I shall remain like this from now on as i tink its the best for me... Yes i do wish we were more... But i know it will nvr happen... n Evendo if it happen... I will be happier man then ever... as u are one of the perfect one for me... but.. i must not be selfish... I will nvr make things happen between u n me... cox.. i dun wan u to be with a guy... who is a half dead man... Im having problems... but i am not sure... as theres a lot of side effect has shown to me n Im afride.... But... I always wish for u... to be with me... but i cant.... i jus cant... hais... forget it... Btw u own me a hair cut... make sure potong betol2 ar u.. kalau tak.. rambot u i potong botak ar... hahah... n yar the sad part n nice of her is that... she's coming from tamp to jurong jus to cut my hair... baik kannnn hahah... xD... n i decided to prepare a meal for her... My own fav fook... Ayam Soup... hahah... Yeah.. Once again.. Im kinda sad... I hav forgotten how to love a person with a special needs... I been single for year... Damn laa.. I jus cant stop thinking of u... But like i said.. I guess It will nvr happen between us evendo u give me the gap to step in.... Ily... As u the only person gave the bright light for me... Ur the person i only sms with, Your simple, Loving, Caring, Curiousity n of cox who love to eat a LOT but in slow phrase... hhahah.. n love the colour green a lot... Hope u will hav a best future n be best in ur studies n u always wanted to be one.... I guess my love for u is jus to let it go n be alone forever... I accept the fact n Ill hav to continue it myself forever..... Like i said... All i want to do for now is... "Smile Always" n Enjoy the remain time i hav.... n ya.. off to Sakura... Having Dinner with Family.. : )