Stressing Out....

Omg... I kept stressin out.. I really need 100bucks.. 50 for my BBDC License n 50 for my hp bills.. N Im done.. But where fuck am i goin to get the 100... Gosh.. Im like search on the newspaper during my morning shift working n now sia... Still no sign or getting any haiss... Jus a freaking 100bucks.... But suddenly in one second of time... a light jus shine on me... not really a light.. jus a msn blinkin out.. hahah.. Jia Hua told me.. Ehh wanna work or Thurs n Fri.. 8am to 5.30pm... At Simei ITE... n I was like... YESSAA.. My holy saint guidence has guide me to a path that I really need it badly hahah... But i tink i only get 80bucks for both of the day... Better then nth rite??.. hahah i know... BUT!!!... Every light has its own darkness... I might not get it.. As shes' not incharge but jus informing.. That i could help them n work for them... IF they needed me.. Im soo stressing out n Living on my own fairy tales... Lots of Ambitions n Dreams but with less Time n Prepaperation.... haiss....

Midset of Moving on...

Was late for work jus now... haha 30mins... xD!... thats A LOT... n extend for my dear lame ass store manager for 2hrs... which ended my scedule at 2pm hahha... After that i went to some photo shop to Luminade my PDL... Jus in case if anything happenn xD... n Duplicate my keys... n guess wat... I went to reborn my hair... n now im not sure how to set it up... Matrep ways or Skaters ways... hahah... Im starting to love it... n it cost 100bucks.. xD!!!.. n pay my Phone bill 61bucks... xD.. Which still hav a outstanding amount of 60... hahah... n after that off to repay my dept with my aunt.. brought their sons Mac meals... xD!!.. Looks like Im a free man again.. Nth I loan anymore... xD... n ya... I guess i hav to seriously MOVE ON... maybe i cant.. but i can do it with a strong midset... n that is wat im good in... but the final things i wan from her is... I wan my Hitam n Putih.... Im keeping them n its final... n also my fav black sweater... n We through... Nth to be contact... Im jus gone forever... I jus cant stay this way the whole time waiting... It hurts.. The love aint jus there anymore.... Haiss.. I wish this will be my last stress month... March Pay Plan.... Hp Bills - 110, Osiris(Orange) or NB(Purple) Shoes - 150, Passport - 80... Total of 340bucks... Hope this will be a hasty Month n my Scedule is almost everyday so that i could gain more money... : )

Fun but Worried....

Had fun today with tauhid... First thing i woke up... Realise my pay is in.. xD... when to BBDC get my PDL n then Book my PPL 1.01 Theory.... After that i went to West Mall to get my LAMB OF GOD Ticket WRATH TOUR... Woohooo finally i got it... N im SOOO goin to the performance dude... wakakka... xD...

n then i went to Woodlands n took a cab n fetch tauhid n off to Masjid for Friday prayness.... n then we went to Causeway Point... Buy my Iphone n Psp stuff... n after that off to CMPB... Tauhid wanted to go there to defer but it wasent approval as they need the REAL deferment letter xD... pity himm hahah... N then we went to VIVO... Ate at Long John Silver... n Brought a Pink Gysby at 7-11 hahah... N soon Im off to my Aunt hse... Paying her bac 30bucks n my step mon 50bucks(She wanted to borrow extra 20).... hahah.. xD... N now i jus realise... Im goin to broke again... soo fucked up dude.... N Im working at morning tmr n once i end it.. Im of to the old Jurong West to reborn my hair... n Sunday off to pay my Iphone bill... Which costed 100bucks... Haiss... Hope this will be my Last month stress... : )))))))

Bowling Lost..... : (

ARRRRR DAMNNNN I LOST TO TAUHID ON BOWLING!!!!.... This is sooo unfair... Its like.. i use to be the champ.... Stick in ever turn... but now.. its like LONGKANG for every turn sia... Cb laa.... "Caring n Beloved"... hahha... Nvm.... Ill get my revenge next time... Soon u will beg for mercy n ask me to be ur master boy.... hahhahahaha... xD!...

Ohh ya.. We went out with Iman n Said n Faris... Thx arr ehhh Said n Faris... Later for like 4Hrs hahah... after they came... We went to watch THE WOLFMAN.... Woohoooo Love the sound effects but hate every shocking scary parts hahahah.. We were sooo damn freaking Noisy in the thearter... xD!!... I had fun with u all.. I wish to go out with u guys like usual... Haiss... My life is fuck up.....

A Deep Cut of a Hand n A Heart....

Not quite a great day to wake up with having those two types of cut... Yesterday... I was soo fucking worried bout her... Somethings is not rite at all bout her... N I was rite.. n I fell down... Having a deep cut at my hands...that gave me a sign as usual...

Yeah... thats deep... n second i had a worse cut... a cut that forever will make me remember... I broke up with her... Jus becox shes jealous.... n pictures... n mostly lame stuff... I cant say anything but... mostly bullshit reason... but like i said.. its ur choice... Love are like.. Together we progress to improvise... Not giving up n find others... I guess that is u... Giving up... Im not goin to say much bout u but thx.. n bye2.... I guess my only sharing for thoughts n feelings is still this blog... N maybe forever in a blog n nvr with someone special...

Last Closing

Today will be my official last night shift... COX I CANT TAKE IT... its not my type... n ya... I've decided... to quit the job... n that will be on the end of april... Time for me to be prepare to say bye2 Starbuck hahah... n hellooo to despatch... xD!.... n ya... currently.. Im feelin down... Syg ku da tak seperti mcm dulu... maybe its becox of me... Too much time on working instead of her... Well.. i really need to work.. hope she understand me more.. or else... things might get worse n i hate that part... anything bad could happen.. n i dun wish for that... hais... n ya.. i cant wait for Sat n Sun... Woohoooo I CANT I CANT I CANT I CANT!!! wait... hahah... Outs outs outs.... Still... theres lots in my mind.. Im stressing out.. n I dont wish my dear to be like this... Cox it will make more stress n i hate that part.... haiss...

Closing Shift

Goshhh.. Im freaking tired dude.... I had 3 straight closin shift... N i hate it cox im not use to it.. n see that transporter uncle shit face.... How i wish to punch his ridiculous f. s. cb. knn. pmk. n soo on hahahah..... Yesterday had to work from 8pm till 2am sia... Soo fucking tiring n boring... n as for today.. 7 to 1am n tmr... 6 to 1am too... Damn it... Im soo freaking lazy... Tmr will be my LAST night shift... I DONT CARE hahah.... n Soon Im out of EZLINK... arrrrr... mati aku haha... N cant wait for this fri or sat.... Pays in woohooo.. n i cant wait... Hope its a BOOM.. cox I got lots of things in mind... n for her to... Keep it a secret.. I wanna buy a Green Addidas bag for her... its her fav n always crave for hahah xD... As for me.. Paying lots of BILLS.. n I craving for my Iphone (Red)FishBone Cover n Psp (Red) Cover.... hahah... n 28th.. Im following her out with her family to BOWLING!!...... Quite nervous.. Its my first time.. xD...

Out of Fear Temporary...

WOOHOOOOO.. the pressure is off for the moment as i already pass my 5.02.... Yes arr... N Now im left with 3... 6.01 n 7.01 n 8.01.... I cant wait dude... Not on Circuit but Road practical... yessa hahah... Since i got my RTT pass n 5.02 Evaluation Pass too... Time to apply my PDL once my Pay is in... N book my back to Theory which is that lame Defencesive Bla bla bla theory..... Goshhh... Waste of money sey... 24 all together.. (8each x 3lesson)... A little bit of mental sum for u guyss... xD!!!... I guess im goin to waste my 50bucks jus like that... n after that Im back on the ROAD... I keep repeating ROAD... i guess i missing riding on the outside road like last time hahahah... xD.... As for now.. I need to delay time.. till 4pm n i hav to get out of the hse.. cox.... Im meeting my WIFE woohoooo.. xD.. meeting her at CityHall at 5pm... Its been awhile since i went out to that lameposer place hahah...

Last Circuit

Woohooo Pass my 5.01 today wakakak hahah.... Had fun with that instructer again... His the best man.. Jus gotta remember his name but i cant hahah maybe next time... Well i guess im ready for tomorrow 5.02... hahah.. Hope i pass n i could procced as usual n hope its a best instructer too.. but i tink it will be a bossy n mean instructer n I have this bad feeling bout tmr.. hahah... Hope the bad feelins are wrong n things go smoothly... : )... N left with 3prac n 3ppl theory... woohooo.. Im loving it man... xD... I WAN MY PDL n I will be having my next practical on the road woohooooo..... hahah... After prac... went back home straightly... No plans... soo i decided to jus relax at home.. n plan my pay on some stuff... N heard my syg leg hurts n couldnt attend her floorball cca... kesian syg ku.. as for me.. something sad n bad happen jus now.. but.. I'll continue keeping it to myself... : )... No worries aite... Omg... 25 on PPL Theory n 25 on PDL... left with 50... I seriously need to plan hahah... Plan hard n Be caution of ur surrounding as things may go out of sudden when there is no awareness... : ))))

Been awhile..

Its been awhile i blog hahah.. ever since im with her... everyday had our best moment hahah... hmmm i seriously got nth to say these few days... but jus my thoughts hahah.. n ya... My kidney... Kinda having some problem yesterday.. it hurts like hell.. n as for today... It dosent hurt but i feel like somethings not rite.... haiss... Lets jus hope nth is wrong n Ill be fine yee... N syg.. dun cry anymore k... theres nth wrong with me... : )... n as for tomorrow... My 5.01... hope i pass it hahah n fri i can go for 5.02 woohooo.. xD... i cant wait... n once i pass these both i less stressen.... n Im left with 3more prac after that... woohooo.. jus 5more n Im a happy man but will hav a final stress with is my TP.. hahah.. Once i pass it.. Im goin to ride2 every single day n work2... n Buy my WR200.. Custom it.. n Motard it... Woohoooo i cant wait... soo many things... But hav to be patient n nvr rush... Everything starts from scratching n together we will improvise it n make it better... That goes to u too love... hahah.. n ya... I love u TOO... hahah.. soo dun think to much negaitive k syg... : )... n sleep with no worries as Im still here with u..

Forever In Love

Omg... Today is the most lovely n happiest day for me... As... From now on... Im.... ATT... with a girl name Shida... Ku syg die aje.. n takde org lain... hahah... We watch the TV... Movie... Me goreng Fries... then my dad brought for us Zinger Burger... Quite full for me... hhaah... spend our best n peaceful n enjoying(hehhehe) moment... hahahhah... Not realising its after 11pm n she's late for her last train hahah... I love u sooo much.... Nvr let go... : )... n Tomorrow... Im working at MORNING again.... jus like jus now hhaha... Hope i wont be late... xD... n she coming down again.... I jus fucking love her... thats all i could say for this blog...
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14/2/10

Outsss....

Well.. I thought i had to work today... but had a last min change of plan.. n i was SOOO PISS off n SOO BORED.... I decided to went out n breath the air... hahah... Walk around.. n then i decided to go to Tauhid hse.. n of cox.. finally meet his lazy eye ball cats... xD... CUTE LAA SEYYY hahah.. n Im definatly OWNING one.. hahah n after that i went out with tauhid awhile... gi mkn kat banquat... n had my fav food... Chicken Cutlet Noodle woohoo.. n we walk n walk around.. hahah n took a break at some area n we chat n chat2... N his the first person i talk bout my late mom story... haiss.. i miss her.. n i will always try to pray for her.... btw im off to work tomorrow : )... n YEssa Ida syg ku... coming over... n cut my hair.. xD... She wanted to eat outside.. but i had no money... yaa.. usless guy i am... n she suggested buying peanut n bread... n i kept laughing seyy... I already got those in the hse hhaha... n ya.. she read the blog... Sh!t.... n she knew everything n i was like.. oh sh!t... I guess she hav known the truth haha... n ya.. she told me.. she wanted to meet me n do something... Mati aku.. mesti kena rembat sampai comma hahah.. die da la fierce selalu marah aku hahah.. Im sooo dead hahah.... n ya.. need to watch Blue Demon... Sounds interesting.... : )

Keep on Rolling....

Yesterday after the dinner... My dad had a last min plan... We went to BBDC.. n Top up my Account... 40bucks from him... n Im PAYING it bac like how i always use to n do... : ).... n on the same day n night... I book for my 4.02... n guess wait... I passed it jus now.. xD... n Now im on stage 5.01... I feel sooo close.. n ya... I HATE BEING PILLION... We had to take turn.. n Im with this chinese kiddo... Damn laa seyy.. He keeps falling down n I had to GO ALONG... n His brake was like EMERGENCY brake siaaaa on every stops... n when the instructer start scolding him.. I kinda quite-ly laugh behind him hahah... n Through out the whole time.. Im like his instructer teaching him HOW to RIDE.... n When the Instructer said... "ok go to the side n change position"... I was like... Woohooo My nightmare has jus ended.. xD... n I had to suffer a LAST EMERGENCY brake from him hahah... When it comes to my turn.. I'll show him hows my standard is... xD... K fine.. shouldnt show off... N ya.. Not sure when i wanna book for my next Prac 5.01... I cant wait for it man.. as i heard the standards n requirement n expection is VERY HIGH... The harder it is.. the Fun-er it will be hahah xD... n ya too bad there's isnt a game practice anymore... : (... Btw I wish i had a wife... Which we can share stuff.. n of cox help me top up more in my BBDC.. HAHAHA... xD.. Well... After the prac.. I wanted to go to my grandma hse but i was too tired... n Ida... kate lepas prac alek.. n tido.. n i took her advise hahah.. Baik kan i u... i tahu... hahah... N Im still waiting for my hair cut from u... n she asked me to dye my hair Brownish colour??... Not sure bout that... xD.... n Looks like the next 4days ill hav to work STRAIGHT without stopping sia... but look at the bright side... BOM PAY... xD...

I miss her.... n mom too...

Well... had to got to work today.. 7am.. n late for 15mins... xD.... n decided to cover for shidah shift on friday as i heard she had car accident.... sad2..... Well... Fida replied my sms... at 4AM.. haha kinda too early... n we both were late for our own stuff(Work n School)... as we decided slept back hahah... wasent a good idea after all eh u... hahah.. Well.. i do miss u... but u sadly broke my heart once jus for a damn guy... i guess i had to much hope on myself n thinking to much positive... stupidly of me... n it will NVR happen again... I shall remain like this from now on as i tink its the best for me... Yes i do wish we were more... But i know it will nvr happen... n Evendo if it happen... I will be happier man then ever... as u are one of the perfect one for me... but.. i must not be selfish... I will nvr make things happen between u n me... cox.. i dun wan u to be with a guy... who is a half dead man... Im having problems... but i am not sure... as theres a lot of side effect has shown to me n Im afride.... But... I always wish for u... to be with me... but i cant.... i jus cant... hais... forget it... Btw u own me a hair cut... make sure potong betol2 ar u.. kalau tak.. rambot u i potong botak ar... hahah... n yar the sad part n nice of her is that... she's coming from tamp to jurong jus to cut my hair... baik kannnn hahah... xD... n i decided to prepare a meal for her... My own fav fook... Ayam Soup... hahah... Yeah.. Once again.. Im kinda sad... I hav forgotten how to love a person with a special needs... I been single for year... Damn laa.. I jus cant stop thinking of u... But like i said.. I guess It will nvr happen between us evendo u give me the gap to step in.... Ily... As u the only person gave the bright light for me... Ur the person i only sms with, Your simple, Loving, Caring, Curiousity n of cox who love to eat a LOT but in slow phrase... hhahah.. n love the colour green a lot... Hope u will hav a best future n be best in ur studies n u always wanted to be one.... I guess my love for u is jus to let it go n be alone forever... I accept the fact n Ill hav to continue it myself forever..... Like i said... All i want to do for now is... "Smile Always" n Enjoy the remain time i hav.... n ya.. off to Sakura... Having Dinner with Family.. : )

Bored Off....

Today is kinda a bored off day... nth much today though... Well.. i sleep at 2am n woke up at 8am... couldnt sleep... soo i jus kept day dreaming the whole morning hahah.. pretend n wish for some stuff xD... after that.. had my bed cover on it... finally.. xD... clean some part of my room... planing some stuff once my pay in.. n ya still missing goin to bbdc hahah.. O yaa finally i played my psp... for soo long... kinda fun though haha... well looks like im late... dad ask me to get out of the hse now n go to my cousin(shafiq) hse hahah... Better get goin b4 his sh!t face out... hahah xD!!!

Quite Fun day...

Hahah.. had fun today... Work ar 11am but i hade to go to B.P. Plaza to take some stuff for my working time... although i came back to my shop late(due to over sleeping xD)... Still it was a fun one... I had to serve LOTS of customer ALL by mySELF... xD... Able to get the job done... n Suddenly these 4girls came to our shop... N kinda acting strange... But i jus ignore hahah... n Suddenly they came bac n gave me a birthday cake... xD!!.. Awww sweet rite.. But i didnt ask for their(Tinn) no. although i know that i should but.. nahhh... hahah... N after that.. my Yunnie(EX-Lover) came to my store to collect something for her own store.. damn... Why must she be the one when im always working.... hahah... Bullied her a bit... n Kinda MISS her a BIT... xD... but too bad... she move on hahah(i tink xD)... N yesterday i had some conversation with my Aunt(Shafiq Mom) bout my sickness... n she told me.. it might be sign of kidney problem as blood came out... n i was like... oooOHHHHH sh!t..... kinda speechless for a moment... but yea... had to be caution from now on... n after i left... she was about to gave me 20bucks n i was like.. OOhh noo i hate this part hahah.. i quickly said bye2 n ran downnnn hahahhaha... I dont like to take ppl money... Dont get use to it becox its not a good practice n u might get use to it n ALWAYS depands on others always.... N as for now... I still thinking.. How am i suppose to book for my Bike PRac... I miss goin it.. although its only been 2days.. xD!!... But Im loving it... Passing one another n ending it quickly n less stress is needed.... Haiss... Most ppl i miss the most stuck in my mind... I wish good things nvr change n bad things improvise for the better... But everything is the oppsite way... Ppl cant see... Well... I hope my kidney will be fine... But if i had a fate saying that i will die... I will still accept it... as god knows wat is best for us n i will meet mama(mom)... I miss you forever....

Yessahhh arr...

OMGS.... BEST DAY EVER!!!!... First thing i woke up.. i check my iphone n its like AUTO REPAIR... everything is bac to normal... Woohoooo Im loving the phone man... xD... n after that.. i was kinda late for my Prac4.01.... n guess wat... I PASS TOO... woohoo... n now im of to Prac4.02... n on the day.. i'll to play some kind of a bike game... which i think MIGHT be cool.. xD... cant wait.. jus 5more prac n TP here i come... xD.... Btw... Im starting to like Feb... Every Afternoon is a rainin time n sometimes night too... Its soo cool as it should be everyday... Feb is the most constant n enjoy month.... I'll hope global warming will be lesser n Earth will be safer.... N ya... Look at that bitch... like i said... Guys that u wan.. Is the type of guy that jus wan ur pussy hahah.... Aint me.. I jus wanna work n enjoy for a living.... xD... We'll.... for now... I need some plans to top up my bbdc... hahah... Anyone wanna donate... xD

Spoilt Phone...

Ooooo whyyy.... All i did was jus a example of how good it is.... n my IPHONE IS SPOILT!!!... Haiss.. Hope tmr is day that will make me happy as usual.... Prac 4.01 at 9.50... after that im off to somerset to repair my iphone... Hope... It will be a ASAP thing... n things will go smoothly.... I hope i pass my crank n s course... n fix my phone on the day... n live happily every after again... hahah... wish me luck aite... xD

Pass again....

Woohoooo I pass my 3.02... n Now im off to 4.01.... Which is on Sunday 9.50 sia.... That hot n tiring hrs again... xD... Jus another 6more prac n Im off too TP.... Crank n S course... goin to be fun.. Hopefully i Pass this one too... xD... n ya.. Instructer there is always picking on me... n keep say... Give me ur Arai Ram3 Helmet la... hahah... N some of them suspected that i rode out side b4... Illegally.. xD... But of cox i stop... N trying to be a Legal man... hahah... As for now... BBDC accound balance... $16.35... Omgoshhh... Im kinda broke... Sould i sell my second phone??.. But i jus brought it last month 400bucks... Gahhh... I wish i hav a gf to sponser me a little bit... xD.... hahah

Cool kann... xD

Today... I woke up at 8am.. could sleep much.. cox my dad was being lame n excited for his car prac... n as for me.. Bike prac... We had the same timing... Easy transport for me... xD... n guess wat.... I PASS TOO.. wooohooooo 3.02 is next.. n I cant wait to learn Emergency BRAKE... After our prac we went out to coffee shop n ate for awhile n i had to go to the BORING working place again... hahha... I sleep for like 1hr b4 the work at the working place.. xD... Btw.. I kinda pity my dad cox.. Im not goin to be CLOSE with him... n NVR be... evendo i hav the chance... Maybe Im being to much but... its life... I jus wanna be fair between him n my late mom... IMY.... sry but i jus cant move on n get over bout this one.... n ya.. Hope when my stepmom give birth... That kid will be close with him as how he really wan to be with.... N i get over it n see happy for them... Hope so... : ))... Btw i cant wait for my 3.02 tomorrow... n it start at 8AM... i repeat... AM!!!.. xD.. hope i could wake up... n ya.. my dad is a DAMN fast learner siaa in car prac... I always thought bout it... When he pass his license... He will be using a Hyundai Getz car on the spot... n on Raye... Confirm our first time on a car sey... XD... but as for me.. I'll be on my Scram Bike... woohoo xD... n I wish i will hav someone special for this raye... : ))))

Lepak.....

Its been while since i met Hakim n Coey n Marven n etc2... hahah... Ok la... Nth special... Most of the time... We were play Lazer on ppl... xD... n Im been BULLIED by them..... As i was buzy working... they were like LAZERING my eye... n one of the customer laugh n didnt even tell me.... PAISEY KAPE hahah... Wat to do... Jus like SquidWard... being bullied... during working on CASHIER... or should i say the REGISTER... xD... Quite tiring lepak as 11pm we head back home... : )))) ... n Tomorrow is my prac.. woohoooo but after that i had to go to work... BUUU... xD

Worst n Tiring Day

Finally.... Its been awhile since i used a blog... As i thought i need to use it again to release n tell my feelin out.. although it sux... im confession through an internet... xD... Well... today i had a rough n bad day.... As i had to work.. 7am till 3pm... n continue 6pm till 11pm... Split shift.... I was damn tired-ing... n the worst part.. I thought i lost my phone n i suspected ONE of the worker stole my IPHONE... I wasent really happy as i was to tired for such game... N guess wat... I found it in one of that fat girl Bag... N when I ask her... she said... Ask Hafiz(Store Manager)... When i call him i asked.... "Kau nak mati pee curik hp aku pe siak)... n he was like... Im buzy.. n Put down... Kedi kann... Mintak kena bikin sia... Sot sia... Seriously Im fucking Sleepy n Tiring... N they Disappoint me...

At last...

Wooohoooo I pass my 2.02.... As i failed it Once.... the sad part is that.. out of 7 ppl.. only 2 ppl pass.. n one of the is me... xD.... N now... Im of to 3.01... Im feeling excited... as i had not when to bbdc for a month... due to having fun riding outside n forgot bout being legal... Most of my fren stop me... n Talk me out bout the CONCSIQUENCES... of riding ILLEGALLY... xD.. n I thought bout it... they are rite... Its time i tink bout it n start being a Legal person... xD... Well lets hope i pass this Prac Quickly... xD...